the day i fell

it's now official, this is the worst day of my life. i feel so embarrassed, ashamed.. i feel so down, so tired and so disappointed. this is one of the few things that i was so wrong in making my decisions. i just wish that i could travel back in time and stop it all from happening.

maybe i underestimated the room to room campaign, saying it with full confidence that it's easy as pie, well again, im wrong. i feel like crying, because for the first time in my life, i didn't fought. for the first time in my life, when someone was trying to belittle me, i didn't spoke up. To tell you the truth, i could answer their questions with my chin held up high, but of course, i couldn't do it with manners. I just swallowed my pride, knowing the my party will suffer if i do that, and just walk out their room with my smile on my face, pretending that i can take their blows.

but through it all, im still happy because i have friends, who i know, are always there to comfort me when im sad. Just like now, we went to patricia's house and blah blah blah, we had so much fun. Some of us even opened up while me and mary ann our having a little drama talk of ourselves. We also went to mcdo kabihasnan and for the very very very first time of me and venice's life, we had company going to paranaque.

sorry for the bad english, im chatting with someone else :)